A Little Jumpy

I am thinking of moving this blog to Blogger. This is partly because it has Audblog (I'm addicted now, though I still have to sign up for it), partly because you can add stuff to it a lot easier than you can here at blog-city, partly because blog-city is so freakin' slow and mostly because blogger is completely and totally free. Free. Isn't that the greatest word ever? Freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Yesterday was the three month "anniversary" of Abbott's accident. I tried so hard all day to come up with something to write about it and about him but nothing seemed good enough. I doubt anything I ever have to say about Abbott will be, because while I know he was never perfect, to me he was the sun and the moon and the stars. I think he always will be. The thing I loved most about Abbott was his ability to Live. He just did whatever he fancied doing and didn't really give a rip about what anybody thought of him. He would get a bug up his butt to do something and by god he'd go and do it. I always admired his courage, even more so after we got to be close enough that he'd let me see his doubts and frustrations when things didn't go as planned. He never let anything stop him. He loved life and he refused to let anybody just sit by and watch theirs go by. That's pretty much what I was doing when I met him. I had given up the ghost of an "exciting life" and reconciled myself to mediocrity. Enter Abbott, who pushed me and prodded me and goaded me and irritated me into dusting off all those ideas I had wanted to achieve and shoved me down the path to achieving them. I'm still on that road and it's lonely without him and his constant "Hey slacker pick up the pace" approach to living. I only hope that someday I can inspire someone as much as he has inspired me. Anything good that I achieve in this life will be in part from knowing him. I miss him. Tomorrow is Monday and I go back to work. This is the first time in over five years that I have actually had a Monday be my Monday. Oooh. Bangles song in my head now. All righty, I am going to go to sleep now so I can get up and go to work in the morning. All of you go get some rest too. You'll need energy to keep up with me this week!